Why has pregnancy and infant loss awareness month felt hard for me? Because I don't fit into what I perceived a loss had to be.
I didn't have a miscarriage. I didn't have an infant loss. And I feel incredibly grateful that is the case.
But I did have loss along the way.
I had 7 unsuccessful cycles of treatment for infertility. I had 3 IVF cycles that all resulted in embryos being transferred and no baby.
I felt and grieved what could have been for those embryos but didn't allow myself the freedom to truly grieve it as a loss.
In the episode today I share my story and talk about how all of our losses whether they fit into what society tells us is loss or not can still impact us deeply. And I honor all the losses that come along with this journey to becoming a parent.